At Night

For those who know me, I am one hell of a night owl.

The night time is when I feel my most creative. It’s also the time where my mind is racing at 1000mph.

I’ve always had trouble sleeping ever since I was little. Like any little kid, I was afraid of the dark so I would sleep with the tv on. Having the tv on seemed like a good idea, but it only made things worse. I began to have trouble sleeping, and it would result in me being put on sleep medication. As a result, I now cannot sleep without some form of drugs to help me sleep. As for the tv issue, that is a thing of the past.

My problem is that I am a huge over-thinker. Is it anxiety? Most likely, but that is a story for another time. Insomnia? It comes and it goes, and it’s probably the reason I’m up at night as well. Partying? Maybe (insert sly face emoji here).

The over-thinking is a pain in the ass. But I also like to think of it as an advantage. My creativity is high at 1:30 in the morning (which is why I am here blabbing to you all) and writing about the random bullshit in my head helps.

When people ask how to relax when they are tense, I tend to say “take a book or your computer and just write about what is going on”. And I’m sure you the reader has been told this countless of times.

So when I am bombarded with remarks about how I’m a lazy bum sleeping in until 10:30-11:00 am, I just roll my eyes. But at least I have the satisfaction of knowing that I was spending my time at night doing something that calms my nerves.